I know how to find my drafts now!!!! Dead easy when you are not in a panic

I am crushed.  This is what constantly happens to me.  I guess I am just not meant for this.  I am ready to give up.  I saved and then went to put in my 3rd video and my computer went to la-la land.  I really believed my post would be there when I went back to Blogger and it is not.
Starting over, I was just expressing my frustrations on how much time I spend trying to get this right - thinking I was getting this time.  Two hours I have spent just getting this blog here - and I could cry.  Will this one even stick?  I feel hopeless.  I want to get this done so I can go away next weekend but this is not looking good.  This is how I posted before it disappeared:

I feel even worse now.  Before I could laugh at myself at least.

I really am trying to make pretty and nice posts but my time is so wasted on trying to get pictures to post.

In the past I was typing on word then copying and pasting to the post so I thought I would just write in the post , I really hope this is better.  My mind is so exhausted and I want to get outside - I just feel beyond possible.

Anyway, I made 4 videos and had fun using WebCam Companion 2.  I tried to post from this for our introductions but I think I was making the video too long (30 seconds seems the safe place for now) and the resolution was too high.  These are my videos:

Yes!  My first video on a blog!